Monthly Archives: August 2015

I’m Not Dead Yet


So I’ve been depressed for the past few months. No, I’m not going to hurt or kill myself. I’m depressed in a way that I would prefer sleeping off on my problems than facing them head on. It started when I realized that I’m no longer enjoying my job as a social media manager. I wanted to switch back to my old career in the kitchen, but landing job as a pastry cook now has become an arduous feat since I haven’t been inside a professional kitchen for 2 years now, and add the fact that I’ve gained more than 100 pounds in the last 4 years.

And I’ve also enjoyed working in the comforts of my own home. I don’t need to commute back and forth from work. I can travel. I get weekends off. I’ll be leaving those behind when I work in the kitchen again. Why wasn’t I born into a rich family like Paris Hilton? Haha! Life is so fucking unfair.

Right now, I don’t even know what I’m going to do with my life. I’m so confused!